College Life.

Pretty much stinks :)
except for the fact that.......your away from home:)

Insecurities

 
Before starting college, I never really understood why people badly wanted to be in a relationship.
Neither did I realise 3 months into college.

Yes, I admit, I've had my series of crushes. 2 infact. None of them productive or successful. However, now that i've entered my 5th month of college, I can understand why some people get depressed due to single-hood.

Its a peer thingy. Expecially when you see so many couples around you every single day, looking all happy and mushy. Its kinda cute I admit. But I also came to realise how it unconsciously makes someone who is single feel a little left out? I dont think thats the right word. hmmm...perhaps...lonely?...erm wishful? whatever it may be, I bet you understand (I HOPE).



I guess Its not the issue of being rejected wish sort of crumbles my outer appearance but the fact that I'm not good enough. Its mainly the insecurities and not the jealousy. If I see my crush with another girl, I'm not literally dying of jealousy but the frustration of not being able to look good enough or have the sparkling personality of that girl he is with is what takes over. Of course i'm not jealous of her. pfftt..heck no. Just the wish that I wasnt such a freak who scares away people. The wish that I was Taller, Hotter and everything else.
 

Yeah well thats peer pressure I guess. Sooner or later, you learn to adjust to it. I sincerely hope.....

So till then, I love being single !

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A huge majority of Asians has this annoying perspective that only people who pursue a science related field are clever or considered worthy to be acknowledged. And that is utter bull. Any and every field requires the same amount of determination, hardwork and brainwork. As I decided to not take up chemisry, physics, bio and mathematics...I noticed how people made silly remarks such as..."oh yeah ur doing arts subjects, definitly damn easy to score...no need to study and stress alot alot one.." and I sincerely feel like giving them one good kick. Wake up, there is an entire truck load of career options other than being a Doctor or an Engineer. its the 21st century for heaven's sake.....

People can be sooo prejudist.
Just because I took Law, Economics, Lit in English and Sociology, doesnt mean I'm stupid. These people honestly think these subjects are undemanding and thats very frustrating. Well let me give you a piece of insight on these subjectcs. THEY REQUIRE  A CRITICAL, ANALYTICAL & CREATIVE mind to understand and respond in examination. Its not just memorizing but alot of understanding and applying. Hence, my advice to those who want to take these subjects just because you think its an easy A.....THINK AGAIN.

Thank God

I know this is very late but..

I GOT BACK MY HANDPHONE THE DAY AFER I LOST It!!

Honest to God, its a miracle. Thank God for nice people (the girl who found my hp n returned it bak to me).
It has been proven that nice people still do xist and that God hears your prayers. God bless that girl.

N70

Today is the day I lost my 5 year old handphone. Sad aint it not?

When i first realised that i hv lost it...i panicked!

As i was sitting in the train on the way home....i said to myself, its just a phone.

But now that I'm back home.....I am super sad. : (

How I wish I could miraculously get it back!!!